8.

Here are some quotes that I have been reading over to myself, some of them inspirational, some funny and some sad. I read quotes when I feel upset or stressed out, they help me feel better


"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust noone but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together." Marylin Monroe

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind."
— Dr. Seuss

"Dance like no one is watching. Sing like no one is listening. Love like you've never been hurt and live like it's heaven on Earth."
— Mark Twain

"Here's to the crazy ones. The misfits. The rebels. The troublemakers. The round pegs in the square hole. The ones who see things differently. They're not fond of rules. And they have no respect for the status quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify or vilify them. About the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things. They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius. Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do."

"In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."
— Robert Frost

"Women are like teabags; you never know how strong they are until they're put in hot water."
— Eleanor Roosevelt

"To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment."
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

"A friend is someone who knows all about you and still loves you."
— Elbert Hubbard

"All that is gold does not glitter,
Not all those who wander are lost;
The old that is strong does not wither,
Deep roots are not reached by frost."
— J.R.R. Tolkien (The Fellowship of the Ring)

"Whenever you find yourself on the side of the majority, it is time to pause and reflect."
— Mark Twain

"Be yourself; everyone else is already taken."
— Oscar Wilde

"Beauty is in the eye of the beholder and it may be necessary from time to time to give a stupid or misinformed beholder a black eye. (as said by Miss Piggy)"
— Jim Henson

"I've learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel."
— Maya Angelou

"That which does not kill us makes us stronger."
— Friedrich Nietzsche

"I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells."
— Dr. Seuss

"Anyone who thinks sitting in church can make you a Christian must also think that sitting in a garage can make you a car."
— Garrison Keillor

"If you want to know what a man's like, take a good look at how he treats his inferiors, not his equals."

"I have not failed. I've just found 10,000 ways that won't work."
— Thomas A. Edison


"I may not have gone where I intended to go, but I think I have ended up where I needed to be."
— Douglas Adams

"Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea."
— Robert A. Heinlein

"You don't have a soul. You are a soul. You have a body."
— C.S. Lewis

"Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. 'Pooh?' he whispered.
'Yes, Piglet?'
'Nothing,' said Piglet, taking Pooh's hand. 'I just wanted to be sure of you.'"
— A.A. Milne (Winnie-the-Pooh)

"People are just as happy as they make up their minds to be."
— Abraham Lincoln


"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us."
— Helen Keller

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."
— Ralph Waldo Emerson

"Humans think they are smarter than dolphins because we build cars and buildings and start wars etc...and all that dolphins do is swim in the water, eat fish and play around. Dolphins believe that they are smarter for exactly the same reasons."
— Douglas Adams

"It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter."
— Marlene Dietrich

"Inconceivable!"
"You keep using that word. I do not think it means what you think it means."
— William Goldman (The Princess Bride)

For Attractive lips, speak words of kindness, For lovely eyes, seek out the good in people, For a slim figure, share your food with the hungry, For Beautiful hair, let a child run their fingers through it once a day, For poise, walk with the knowledge that you never walk alone. People, more than things, have to be restored, renewed, revived, reclaimed, and redeemed. Remember, if you ever need a helping hand, you will find one at the end of each of your arms. As you grow older, you will discover that you have two hands, one for helping yourself and the other for helping others."
— Audrey Hepburn

THere are more, but I dont have time to go over them now ;)
c'est la vie <3

7.

I've been trying very hard to not be paranoid, and not focus on other peoples thoughts and opinions, I have been trying very hard to not let my guilt in hurting someone I do truly love and care about cloud my judgement. I am not heartless, I have spent too many nights sitting up alone and crying feeling horrible for hurting someone; feeling guilty for not being able to help him in a way that makes him happy; feeling alone because I feel like nobody actually understands everything that's going on, either because they dont need to know or it's too difficult for them to comprehend now; feeling angry because people don't know what's going on and judging me and him. But it's not all bad, I have been trying to be happy, and trying to focus on the future, trying to be optimistic and not focus on the past, trying to believe that everything will work out well, trying to not worry about things I cant control.

I want him to be honestly happy, on his own, or with someone else, it's really up to him and noone else can make that decision except him. I know alot of people have decided that it's my fault, there are alot of rumours about what happened, whats going to happen in the future, at this point, we both need to get help, Me for my bulimia, because I really need to focus on me and worry about my life for a while. and him for his issues, that are his choice to acknowledge and discuss. I am hoping that we will both get to the point where we can be together comfortably as friends, whether we are with other people or not, Because he is one of my best friends and I dont want that to change, I dont expect it to be easy, its going to be difficult and I understand that. I also expect alot of awkwardness between any new people that may be introduced. But I hope things work out and I really want things to work out.

I have also noticed a growing dislike for certain people and it upsets me, not because of the person but because of the relationships that are being affected. It also has been getting harder for me to keep my opinions to myself about these people. I have realized I have made mistakes in the past, some are clearly bigger than others, and even tho some people think I'm an airhead and have no idea what Im talking about, I have learnt from my mistakes for the most part and I'm still learning. Life isnt easy Im slowly learning that, I just want the people I love to be happy forever, and to not make the same mistakes I do, even tho if anyone understands the whole being stubborn and "ill make my own mistakes" thing, its me.

I also am extremely happy that I can talk to my family more often without having to hide my issues as much, Im still glad to have that bit of a buffer and have my own independence and my own life.


thats it for now
c'est la vie <3

6.

Why is it, that you can be !20% sure of something at sometimes and only 85% at others?! It's irritating and frustrating, maybe it's because when you first make a plan it sounds fabulous and if everything were to go to plan it would be great, but also unrealistic, and usually you don't think about that until after the fact. But still, is it ok to go along with it even if you're not 120% sure of it? because in the end you know what the end result you wanted was, therefore you know what you want you just need to tweak the action plan a bit? either way Ill think of it and figure it out, as usual.

5.

I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadows
If I fail, if I succeed at least I live as I believe
No matter what they take from me
They can't take away my dignity


This makes me super happy <3

4.

Everyone has that dream, the life that they want. Mine was grow up, get a good job I loved doing, fall in love, get married, have a family, live happily ever after. Seemed simple enough, I figured all I needed was an education, a boy and a little faith. I didn't expect it to be difficult, I didn't expect to work at it too hard, I figured if it was meant to be it would work out easily. I didn't anticipate the challenges I'd meet, the hurdles I would need to struggle over. When I was younger and the hurdles were smaller, it seemed enough just to have my family and close friends on the side lines encouraging me and giving me the occasional boost over said hurdles. But as I grew more independent and bloomed into my own person, I relied less and less on the encouragement of others and more on myself, it still helped knowing my family and friends were there, but I knew I could make it on my own. I'm not saying I never need to hear the occasional boost of confidence or reassurance; heaven knows how often I've wanted to sit down and cry, give up, felt that this particular hurdle just may be the one I can't overcome, and found inspiration from an outside source. Whether it be a compassionate talk with my mommy, a reassuring cuddle from my daddy, seeing myself through my sister's eyes as a person capable of anything I set my mind to, watching my brother not only overcome his hurdles but seemingly shine in all areas in which he makes even the slightest effort, a day with my grandparents in which they just love me and make things seem easier, or a long cry and an understanding Best Friend someone that I have always been able to be vulnerable around and trust, is just the trick to get me over that hurdle.

No so far my life hasn't been easy, but it hasnt been as hard as it could be either, I guess sometimes you're so eager to get to the hurdles you want that the ones you're jumping now seem more tedious and strenuous than they actually are. In my rush to get ahead I've made mistakes, I've hurt some people, and hurt myself, and in that way have made more obstacles for myself. But I have learnt along the way, there is no easy way to the end of this journey called life, sometimes you need to step away from that hurdle you're struggling with, take a breath, and say ok, I've made a mistake, I've been going at this the wrong way.

C'est la vie <3

3.

I was just about to go to bed when this clip popped up in my head, I have always loved this movie but this part of the movie really stood out to me lately. I like how it says you can always go home, and that sometimes things don't turn out the way you want them to, or the way you had planned, but that's ok, you just need to step out for a bit take a breather, then realize life goes on either way and it's up to you to make the best out of it.

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When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us....
-Helen Keller


Going over how often I actually keep my New Year Resolutions, I have decided I am in fact, NOT, going to make one. BUT
I am in fact going to make some life changes, one being working to get my bulimia under control. But I am needing to go to the Gym and work on yet another life change, getting in shape in a healthier way, working out WHILE maintaining proper eating habits. :)


C'est La Vie <3
xoxo Veronique